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What the Bleep is Happening with Me?

 

What the Bleep is Happening to Me?

A Soul Catching Experience


by Titanya Monique Dahlin


    
At every workshop, almost everyone yearns to “see” the energies, the colors and the shapes that Donna Eden sees through our own eyes. It seems like the ultimate highest intuitive sense, doesn’t it? Well, don’t be too hurried for those things that you might not be prepared for…and here is why.  Let me tell you of my own unexpected experience that happened to me, this year.

     As Donna Eden’s daughter, I am one of those sensitive individuals that can walk into a room and get zapped by everyone’s energy.  I have always had difficulty holding hands in a healing circle or being inundated with people who want to hug me. I find it hard to go to historical landmarks where war, plagues, injustices etc. had taken place through time. And even though I do everything I have learned to prepare and protect myself, it is also hard for me to do energy work on anyone without feeling drained or receiving some of their “stuff” after their healing. 

Even though I grew up with the work as a natural third-generation healer and intuitive, I participated as a student in the two-year Eden Energy Medicine Certification Program, and yet, knowing all of that, I still felt that I did not learn how to protect and ground myself while healing. It became all too clear with the experience that followed. My own experience has made way for changes to the certification program with specialized attention toward protecting yourself when doing Energy Medicine.

   Last Spring, I was asked to be on faculty at the Certification Program and I was chosen to take the role of Soul Catcher.  A Soul Catcher’s job is to observe the energy shifts in the classrooms; see if the energies shift toward emergency situations, and then, to catch those sensitive students that may spin out, due to the changes that occur. Spinning out can represent anything from headaches to nausea to intense breakdowns.  You, as a soul catcher are the energy rescue angel and you help anyone in need.

     All my life, I never wanted to be in this field of work. Why?  I saw my mother, from an early age, being ”laid up” in bed after many private sessions, talking on the phone with some ‘dear souls’ that were walking or feeling better for the first time in many years. Of course she was so happy for them and not about to tell them that she now couldn’t walk and was talking to them while lying down in bed.  I’d hear stories about clients with entities that would jump into my mother’s body and séances that had to be performed to rid her of them.  Strange experiences were common in our household. .  I always was fascinated by the Occult and had the ability to see, feel, hear, and even smell the nuances of the world unseen.  I felt, heard, saw and talked with the elemental beings from an early age. I even saw colors (auras) around people until the first day of preschool. (That’s another story!) I never thought twice about this world. It was natural and normal to me. This was my childhood.

     Over the years, my mother learned how to protect her own energy, because she had to and still give her personal amazing healings that she did. She found her own way to protect and ground and the generic “white light shields” just weren’t going to cut it! She began to teach others who wanted to learn this work…and it all started with Sandy Wand, her first student, with one-on-one teachings. Classes followed and then classes grew into workshops and workshops grew into a book and then into the Certification Program.

     So, here I was many years later, unexpectedly finding myself,

on the faculty at the C.P and I was going to take my job serious and so I dove right in!  I was the only soul catcher for the two large classes at C.P of with hundreds of students.  I did my job and rescued many in need, but at the same time I did not realize that I was losing myself in the process. Sometimes, I had as many as two to three people at simultaneously who I was trying to help, and many of them were all very sensitive souls, like me.  These were the ones who could pick up any vibration, any shift of energy, anyone’s mood, electromagnetic in the room, environmental stress, etc. I knew these sensitivities all too well. And yet these unique individuals are the ones who will make the best healers when they know how to correctly protect and ground themselves.

     When the class was over, I left the C.P early and rushed immediately into a series of other jobs, which took me to Northern California and England. It was so rushed; I only had less than twenty-four hours at home to pack up to teach at the Tribal Bellydance Festival in Sebastopol, California.

     When I got home, something did not seem right in my energies, but I chalked it up to exhaustion and emotional stress. Even, my partner, Jeff, told me that I looked more drained than he’d ever seen. My skin was pasty, dull and lifeless. (Of course nothing that a little makeup could not cover!)  I was also experiencing really bad mood swings, and Jeff was at a loss as to how to help. (I didn’t even know what to do for myself!)  Slowly, I was beginning to see that this wasn’t your average fatigue stress, yet I could not focus on what was “out of sorts” in my being. I had no time, and I was “off” to Sebastopol.

     In the days that followed, it seemed like I was in another space and time. I felt like I was getting the flu. I could not focus. I was tripping over my own feet; being clumsy and bumping into things. I even fell a few times over my own feet, a far cry from my usual graceful personality. Well, there was no grace in this woman whatsoever! I also felt like I was on a real short swing, rocking to and fro, very fast and it wouldn’t stop. I had relapsed into my childhood dyslexia and dyscalculia (mathematical and number calculations), more than I’d ever have before in my life.  I got seasonal allergies, for the first time in my life, too…coughing, sneezing and runny noses weren’t considered beautiful for a bellydancer ready to teach and perform.  A weird thing happened with my perception. I would reach for a glass on the table only to find it was inches away to the right or left of my grasp. I felt unstable, uncoordinated and dropped things continuously.  I had a foggy brain and would forget where I left something.  Yet, I was incredibly attuned to everything around me …good and bad.  I also had a high sensitivity to anything technological- TV’s, radio, computer, even the refrigerator!  I couldn’t stand being in the same room when they were on and I love the radio (music is my life). Jeff, my partner got yelled at unjustly for more than a few times when my mood was just plain “off”. I couldn’t go near the computer for at least a couple of months, so of course my life backed up with emails just sitting there.

     On the positive side, I was highly intuitive and then just while I was reveling in it… all of a sudden to my surprise, I was seeing in between the worlds!  That was intense!  I would sit still and watch beings of all sizes and even pets walk by, as if I was “sidewalk watching”, but it wasn’t in our materialistic world.  They were see-through and made of light. This was very freaky!

 I felt like Alice down the Rabbit Hole.

 “Who are you?!!!”, Said the hookah smoking Caterpillar. “Well, I know who I was this morning, but I’ve gone through several incarnations since then.” Alice said to the Caterpillar.

“WHAT THE BLEEP WAS HAPPENING TO ME!!!????”

     While in Northern California at the Bellydance Festival, I had to teach my Bellydance classes. Luckily, I could wear a mask to hide the fact that I was completely “out of it”.  No one knew how ungrounded and unstable I really was. I was clearly not myself. I was a shell of myself.  (But, the show must go on, right?!) My class was packed and my dance performance came off without a hitch. Thank the Goddess!!!

     In two days, I would be leaving for England.  I called up my Mom and told her of what I was experiencing.  She knew all to well, the symptoms of mine compared to her early days of her healing career.  She did not want me to take the endlessly long flight or even be in an airplane. She wanted to come and meet me ASAP and get “this thing” fixed. 

     Since I was in Northern California and about an hour away from one of our top Energy Medicine Practitioner,  Beverly Davies,  I told her that if I could get myself to her and she could fix me up until my Mom could see me. Mom agreed.

      I knew I shouldn’t have even been driving with my impaired vision and ungrounded feeling, so the ride to Beverly’s in Napa was shaky in the car.  I needed help so I made sure I was extra careful on the road, which was very hard to do under the circumstances.   Beverly, although I didn’t know it at the time, was the perfect E.M practitioner to help me. One of Beverly’s specialties is “Psychic Self Defense” and she has created a whole protocol in it. She helped me get grounded with some of her amazing techniques and then bandaged me up in order to get on that plane a few days later.

     Amazingly, I flew to London, thinking that everything was all fine.  I danced and had a workshop at the Body, Mind, Spirit festival, both in Middle Eastern dance and Energy Medicine. What I didn’t know was that I didn’t have an aura, as my Mom realized later, so that everything could get into my energy field.  (Boy did it ever!) I went to London and all the dark forces that the city attracts from the present to its far distant past history came into my field.  I was not protected in the least, but I didn’t know this.

     Now, the Festival is like a Metaphysical Mecca and attracts all sorts of characters.  That was intense in itself with forlorn needy people wanting my attention in many ways, but then, with London’s history of bloodshed and plagues and deceptive government history; I was picking up everything!  I also found myself invited to dance at a pagan event, which had strange individuals hanging around it too, that clung to me and were hard to shake off.

      Every night I was taking the Underground an hour to my friend’s home. Subways, buses and public transportation always has thrown me “off” in the past, so here I was passing through the dark underground streets of London at in a speeding steel machine full of people of every size, color, and some of the weirdest characters you’ve ever seen.

     I had a few encounters on the underground, which weren’t very pleasant and found myself being chased and verbally abused from some weirdo and hid myself in a crowd.  When I walked from the underground in the dark to my friends house, I couldn’t stay protected, no matter what or how brave I acted…I felt like I something or someone could just trickle past this ‘courageous front’. 

     After the festival, I needed to get away from London. “I got it,” I thought…”I’ll go out to Cornwall, the country!” This has always been one of my favorite places in England.  Well, instead of being at one with the land and the elemental beings, I was a stone and couldn’t follow a map or my own instincts of where to go.  (If anyone knows me or has heard my mother tell the story when, as a baby, I got her out of a city when she was lost.  I couldn’t talk, but just pointed the way while she was crying.)  I have amazing sense of direction and intuition in the land, in other words, a lot of magnetite! So with everything else, I ended up crashing the rental car. I guess that I still hadn’t gotten my perception while driving back, yet.

     I finally got home to good old America!  I was so happy to be home.  Mom rushed up to Big Bear and spent the next 5 days fixing me and getting me back to my own self, while at the same time, we prepared together for the advanced class coming up.  A few things came to light of why I was having such weird experiences.  It was only then that Mom found out that I had lost my aura. What a concept!  Because of this, I also used up my adrenals, so everything was coming into my field.  I was exhausted, depleted and now my back was beginning to hurt a lot (due to adrenal exhaustion). I began to have seasonal allergies, another thing that can happen when you lose your aura. I was always so proud that I never had allergies my whole life and now here I was sneezing, with a runny nose…the works!  Everything was locked up and holding onto everything that had happened since the C.P. I was a mess and could not release anything!

These are some of the things that Mom did with me. These are techniques that she teaches and covers in her books. My grounding to the Earth was very off, which made my balance and coordination falter, so Mom did “The Suckability Technique” (for my grounding back  to the earth) everyday, spooning, held K-1and stomach sedating. We did Large Intestine sedating to release all the built up stuck energy that had come into my field. We also did “Homolateral/CrossCrawl Re-patterning” for the terrible dyslexia and foggy thinking I was having, and “Triple Warmer/Spleen In-balance” and Kidney sedating to get my adrenals back, and “The Crystal Aura Building” to strengthen my aura again.  Crystal Aura Building is where you take a crystal (a bigger crystal is better in this case) and begin to strengthen your aura by spinning it around you.  You begin close to your skin and then slowly, push it out from there into your etheric field.  I also began to do this, on my own, using my own hands and then pat it like you were patting down sand at the beach, for strengthening.

     Later, I shared this technique with one of my “Spin out people” (from C.P) as a solution to her own problem.  She was “crystal sensitive” and my feeling is that she was part “Crystal life color”. Sometimes, Crystal life colors will feel great using crystals on themselves, but their clients can “spin out. Or on the other hand, they, themselves, can be too sensitive to that crystalline energy. They can’t even use the crystal themselves…It’s almost like they have an allergy to themselves. That’s tough!  When the client “spins out”, it will be like being in a Crystal life color’s energy field, three times as powerful and everything that it brings (See, Donna Eden’s Life Colors C.D).  Consulting my mother, I told her to use anything in her field that she feels good with…a flower, another stone, a piece of empowering jewelry, etc.

     So, after all of this, I am finally back together and I actually feel stronger and healthier than ever. If this experience of mine has finally helped the certification program address and teach these issues of protection, centering and grounding, then I am happy…but, I clearly do not want to go through it again!  Keep yourself protected and do your own self-care when you heal!

     The World is moving in an alarming rate and we are all feeling the shifts happening in our own lives.  (I know that I am feeling them full force. Are you?) The Universe is sending us surprising changes to our own comfortable existence so that we must transform in order to move ahead. Things we’ve always counted on in our lives are falling apart…a divorce, a child dies, and you lose a job, so that we can get stronger and meet the challenges ahead. We cannot stay in the world we’ve known. The time is now.  We need to be prepared and protected.  Blow out! Hook up! And Zip up!

Titanya Monique Dahlin

Titanya Monique Dahlin is a multi-dimensional artist; a Waldorf Educational teacher, a professional Middle Eastern dancer, Polynesian dancer, story teller, an award winning speaker and stage actress, known especially for her one-woman mythological dance dramas such as Scheherazade -The Veil Behind the Blade and the Trancendance of Inanna. Throughout the year, Titanya assists holistic health pioneer and mother, Donna Eden in her Energy Medicine workshops leading her own popular form of movement, Energy Dance and Poi Ball Dancing! She also has two popular dvds; EnergyDance! And The Energy of the Poi!  Titanya is a graduate of the Donna Eden Energy Medicine Certification Program and on the staff board. Throughout her life, she has studied many forms of esoteric and healing studies, as they relate to dance and movement that led her to create Five Element Bellydance in 1996.This incorporates the Chinese Five Element system into her belly dance workshops. She and her sister, Dondi, teach annual resort workshops in this very unique style. Titanya is also an animated character in the popular new age video game, Journey to the Wild Divine.